I got out of the habit of journaling here or anywhere else and I keep thinking I should go back, recap the summer, blahda, blahda, blah....then I realized that I should just follow the advice I give yoga students...simply, begin where you are.
So, where am I right now? Tears still drying on my cheeks after a short little walk with my very old dog Birdy, I am in a place of deep sadness. I know that soon I will have to make a decision to end his life compassionately so that he won't have to suffer. He is old, he has some problems, but he is still my Birdman and I can see in his eyes that he trusts me. That trust just makes it all the harder to make the decision, to pick the day that will be his last day.
How will I know the right day?